She looked down at the worn, misshapen sandals on her
dusty, abandoned-looking feet. She wondered what a beauty shop person
would say to her if she asked to have her feet done. Corns, bunions,
dry patches and big yellowed toenails, thick as plywood, made her ashamed
to think about a beauty specialist looking at them. My, it would be
like showing off the stretch marks on her belly and breasts in a bikini
at a posh beach in Miami or something. The pedicurist would probably
complain to her supervisor about ever having to work with clientele
like her. She had let herself go to pot.
Her thoughts returned to the motel, breakfast plans
and how far they could get by bus today. Or where they would go to.
There wasn't much question that it was going to be in the opposite direction
of anywhere Harold could figure out. Harold was probably still splayed all over the couch,
drunk and fat and smelly, with the zipper of his pants still open. It
would take him a day or two, maybe more, to figure out they were gone.
Might take him a day or two to wake up. She made sure not to take more
than they would need or would be noticed missing and deal with laundromats
on the way.
Laundromats were good places to rest up. Wendy and
Michael played with the other kids and she could study the handwritten
messages on the bulletin board along with notices about clothes left
over 30 days, notes about rooms for rent or rides from
such-and-such to so-and-so. Betty didn't care much anymore if
they went west toward California or to Idaho or to Texas or to Oklahoma.
They all sounded like wonderful places with different kinds of scenery,
fresh air and nice people you could chat with in diners and such. She
liked being extra pleasant to the waitresses along the way, remembering
the embarrassment of so many spoiled nights out. She was sure she could
get a job in some small town and earn enough to take care of them, like
in Alice's Restaurant. She'd get a uniform and be friendly to all the
customers and get to know the regulars so she'd know their order as
they walked in, calling out "Hey, Betty. How ya be?"
Their nights
would be wonderful. She'd take both kids to a park and lay on the grass
to show them the stars, The Big Dipper, Orion's Belt and The North Star.
They would be safe and could cuddle and love and cry in each other's
arms for all of heaven to watch.
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